I wish I was cold as stone.
This will probably sound stupid, childish, and shallow....but I hate being single. I really am! I want to find my Mr. Right and I know I'm not gonna find him here at home! I want a nice guy who can understand me and can have an intelligent conversation with me. I want to feel warm and protected.
Please, don't give me the 'Love will come with time' crap, I know this already! I just wish I didn't feel like no one wil EVER be interested in me and I'm not worth being interested in! It hurts so much watching every couple at school kidding in the hall ways, holding hands when they're close....just seeing them so close and so happy kills me because I want what they have! Why can't I have what they have! Why can't I be happy and stupid with love?! I'm such a hopeless romantic.....my expectations of love are unrealistic. But I just know that there is a guy out there with unrealistic expectations of love too, dreaming about the girl of his dreams that will be me. And he will be my dream.
Society frowns upon pure and true love! Calling it boring, and saying it will never last! Screaming that love is all about marrying into money and having sex until the girl gets older! Then you dump her ass for some younger girl to fill desire!!! THAT'S NOT LOVE!!!!
SOCIETY KILLS TRUE LOVE!!!
Society is practically SCREAMING that true love only belongs in fairy tales and fairy tales don't come true!
Fairy tales DO exist! TRUE LOVE is real. I've seen it first hand! My parents met when my mom was in highschool, my dad graduated class of '92. Dad said you know it's love when you know you can't live the rest of your life without them. And that's how he felt with my mom. Mom graduated June 2nd 1995 and they were married not long after. June 2nd, 1996 I was born and they have loved me. They've always loved me. Now that I'm almost an adult, I want what they have. I want to find someone to love me like my Dad loves my Mom.
Is that so wrong?